Amanamongmommies

Last night I got lucky with over flow to be put in the cardiac ward and have my own room.  Tonight I am not so lucky and have a loud roommate and some machines making a lot of noise.  I will be having a procedure in the morning so now I get to try to sleep in a noisy room with the joys of thinking about a procedure in the morning.  So right now I am hiding out in the lounge sitting on the computer.  

My wife has been here 3 times with the boys and never had any trouble.  That being said I was a bit frustrated by early this afternoon.  Unfortunately do to all sorts of circumstances I was alone all day with no “Advocate” here on my behalf.  I have never done well with the pain meds and I get a bit more confused then the average person does.  So after my post early today I went back to my room and was actually in a bit of pain so they dosed me again.  The only problem with this was I had had nothing to eat in basically 24 hours.  The pain meds hit me bad.  As I sat there someone walked in and when they saw me they asked if I was alright.  Apparently my answer was no because within no time there were 3 nurses surrounding me giving me O2 as well as pumping in some nausea meds.  The lack of food and my low tolerance for hard medications threw me for a loop.  Looking back up to that point I was very impressed with everything…  Well thats where my day went a bit downhill.  I was told I was going to have another CT scan and see a GI Doctor in the afternoon, I think… I was still pretty high so I was having difficulties understanding everything that was going on.  The next thing I know I am being wheeled up to a different room and from 1:00pm until 7:00pm I was pretty much in the dark on what was going on.  I refused anymore pain meds so I could clear my head and my wife was finally able to make it in.  At this point we contacted our doctor as well as had the GI Dr call us.  So after finally having a clear head and being able to have the wife also confirm everything we were a bit happier.

With so much going on with the families my wife had to stay with the boys.  I think my day would have been better if there was someone here that could have helped me out while I was dazed and confused.  Tomorrow for the procedure SOMEONE will be here to be an advocate for me.

While I was coming down off the meds this afternoon I felt rather alone and confused.  The nurses did not catch my confusion because I guess I can hide my high very well to strangers.  When I spoke to my wife however she new instantly I was not myself.  

I just want to be home with my family…